"Project: Spiral" - Art Update #18

I have missed a couple of art updates while everything else has been on autopilot during this busy time.  Rather than backdate a make-up post, I'm just gonna leave 'em like that to rub my nose in it.  And here's a self-portrait I'm working on, because I don't feel like doing Tom's cabin right now.

I realized at some point that this is the first time I've ever tried to draw myself, unless you count a thing I did when I was fifteen:

I still like that drawing, kinda.  Hey, it's just a couple weeks away from being twenty years old!

Anyway, here's the sketch overlaid on the photo, because I always think that looks neat:

OK.  Time to get back on these art updates!

"Stories About My Life," part 9: Six Scars with Stories

While P:S is in editing mode, I thought I'd write up a few stories about my life.  These are things that I have wanted to talk about, but haven't really been able to because P:S is written mostly from the perspective of my seventeen-year-old self.

If you've been reading these stories since the beginning, then I feel like we're friends.  Not really.  But close enough.  And today, I want to talk about something personal:  the stories behind my scars.  This post was inspired by this video that Lady M shared with me:

I just love her foul-mouthed positivity!  (Seriously, how could that not be up my alley?)  Anyway, we'll get right to it.  Content Warning for child abuse, self-harm, NSFW stories, and (SFW) photos of scars.

"A Tale of Fire and Panic" - Chapter 9: Offender of the Gods

If you are new to Project:  Spiral, then click here to read the teaser, or click here to read from the Prologue.  Otherwise, welcome back!

Content Warning!

This story contains instances, descriptions, and frank discussions of:  depression, personality disorders, and other mental health issues; suicidal thoughts and suicide attempts; child abuse and neglect; graphic violence, war crimes, and institutional/systemic violence; gender dysphoria, body dysmorphia, and transphobia.  Reader discretion is advised.

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"Stories About My Life," part 8: Tamment and Norissiel

While P:S is in editing mode, I thought I'd write up a few stories about my life.  These are things that I have wanted to talk about, but haven't really been able to because P:S is written mostly from the perspective of my seventeen-year-old self.

Today's story is about my friend's Extremely Homebrew d20 RPG we just played today (I'm writing this in early September) with some of my old college buddies.  As P:S is loosely set in a d20 fantasy world, I thought it might be cool to get an idea of how my friends and I actually play.  Enjoy!

"A Tale of Fire and Panic" - Chapter 8: The Next Morning

If you are new to Project:  Spiral, then click here to read the teaser, or click here to read from the Prologue.  Otherwise, welcome back!

Content Warning!

This story contains instances, descriptions, and frank discussions of:  depression, personality disorders, and other mental health issues; suicidal thoughts and suicide attempts; child abuse and neglect; graphic violence, war crimes, and institutional/systemic violence; gender dysphoria, body dysmorphia, and transphobia.  Reader discretion is advised.

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"Stories About My Life," Part 7: My Dumb Ass

While P:S is in editing mode, I thought I'd write up a few stories about my life.  These are things that I have wanted to talk about, but haven't really been able to because P:S is written mostly from the perspective of my seventeen-year-old self.

Today's story is 100% in service to the idea of character balance, because the picture I've painted of myself so far is that of a Chaotic Good Legendary Polymath Ninja, and I don't want to leave the impression that I either have no flaws or are unaware of them.  So here are several quick stories of me, being a complete and utter dumbass, just to paint a more complete picture.  The last one's even Halloween themed!  Enjoy!  Also, BEWARE NSFW CONTENT.

"A Tale of Fire and Panic" - Chapter 7: The Loaded Die

If you are new to Project:  Spiral, then click here to read the teaser, or click here to read from the Prologue.  Otherwise, welcome back!

Content Warning!

This story contains instances, descriptions, and frank discussions of:  depression, personality disorders, and other mental health issues; suicidal thoughts and suicide attempts; child abuse and neglect; graphic violence, war crimes, and institutional/systemic violence; gender dysphoria, body dysmorphia, and transphobia.  Reader discretion is advised.

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Careful What You Wish For

Right.  So.  I get these ads from the Wish app whenever I'm browsing Faceborg, and lately, they've been getting... weirder.

Like... what even is this?  A homemade grenade press?

"Stories About My Life," part 6: Happily Ever Until Now

While P:S is in editing mode, I thought I'd write up a few stories about my life.  These are things that I have wanted to talk about, but haven't really been able to because P:S is written mostly from the perspective of my seventeen-year-old self.

Today's story is about how I met my current and now longest-running girlfriend, the Lady M.

Above is the Faceborg exchange in which she established her fledgling crush on me.  The rest of the story is below the cut.  This story gets a bit NSFW (and is published with the knowledge and consent of Lady M).  That said, enjoy!

"A Tale of Fire and Panic" - Chapter 6: The Catacombs

If you are new to Project:  Spiral, then click here to read the teaser, or click here to read from the Prologue.  Otherwise, welcome back!

Content Warning!

This story contains instances, descriptions, and frank discussions of:  depression, personality disorders, and other mental health issues; suicidal thoughts and suicide attempts; child abuse and neglect; graphic violence, war crimes, and institutional/systemic violence; gender dysphoria, body dysmorphia, and transphobia.  Reader discretion is advised.

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"Project: Spiral" - Art Update #17

Today's art update is more from the archive; this time, characters I cut entirely.

Back in the day, I had intended Project:  Spiral to branch out into different layers of consciousness.  Each part of the story would be progressively more removed from my past and more concerned with my executive functioning.  It was very psychological, and it got way too crazy (probably because I got most of my ideas during manic phases).  The end of it was basically I'm Transgender And I'm Free To Do What I Want - which is a fantastic moral for any eggs out there, but not much of a payoff for that long of a story.  So I made the titular Spiral about time instead of layers, and accordingly, the character of Dharmakaya Amber Hart no longer made sense.

The rest of her story is below the cut... and to be honest, I'm only sharing this because I'm too busy to create new art right now, and so I'm digging deep into the archive.  I'm not proud of what this content says about my past.

"Stories About My Life," part 5: Senior Prank

While P:S is in editing mode, I thought I'd write up a few stories about my life.  These are things that I have wanted to talk about, but haven't really been able to because P:S is written mostly from the perspective of my seventeen-year-old self.

Today's story is from another inspirational post (ins-post-ration?  Ew, no), this one from reddit:

The story of my own senior prank is below the cut.  Enjoy!